Tuesday, July 12, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

I usually do not post on Tuesday's
But I thought I should since it's my birthday.

I am 38 today!

In past years I've had no real issues with getting older and
have welcomed July 12th with open arms for as long as I can remember.

I recall how it felt to turn16...
I was ecstatic, of course!

 At 18, no different...
At 21, still not much difference...
At 25, a little proud actually.
At 30, Amazing!
And even at 35 I didn't mind
I was quite happy with my age and my accomplishments.
But it was at 36 that I began to wonder...

What's going on here!?
Where is the time going!?

How is it that 36 years has gone by so quickly?
Let's slow it down a little bit...
Because....

I have gray hair (yes, I do).
I have smile lines that don't go away after I stop smiling...
And I am not able to eat anything I want anymore....
Grrrrr.

And most importantly...
I haven't reached all of my goals yet.
On one hand birthdays can be an amazing time of celebration of
our birth, our life and who we are.
We are wiser, better and more aware of ourselves,
what we want and where we want to be...

But,
They can also be a burden when we think of all we've not done.
We are reminded of all of the
'didn't do's', 'should've dones', and haven't yet's.

 I have come to this conclusion...
I will celebrate, not regret.
I'd rather be 38 than 16, 18, 21, 25, 30...

I finally feel like I have a clue in life now...
I have finally figured out a lot of things!

Why in the WORLD would I want to go BACK!!!???

So, bring on the gray, the wrinkles and the payback for eating a big bowl of ice cream more nights
than I should, because I am happy with who I am.

This year I will have 38 candles on my cake...
(though I truly hope not..lol)
And I will celebrate all 38 years of my evolution....

It's because I'm getting older...
That I am who I am today...

And I am one in a million!!!


Truly,
Amber







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